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[Sep. 13th, 2007|07:00 pm] |
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Sorry it has taken me a long time yet again to show myself its been rough for the past few week you see i am having health problems and I am scaared of what they could mean...but I hope its nothing to be scared of. |
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| hey |
[Aug. 6th, 2007|02:22 pm] |
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listen everyone sorry for being away for so long if you see this and want to talk to me now is the time cause i am now using the libaray computer and will be on everynow and thern but heres the scoop...my mother had died she died on oct 20 2006 then a few months ago my comp crashes because the lights went out during the shut off phase.... |
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| soul bound |
[Mar. 26th, 2006|09:58 pm] |
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oh sweet soul you call to me so i can feel you hold me in my dream
only to find when i wake im alone
i see you everywhere i hear your voice in every song
no matter how hard i wish you can never come back
even thought your gone and watch over me
know this my heart and soul is there beside you |
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| year older none the wiser |
[Nov. 30th, 2005|01:22 am] |
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you know its a point in time of my life when i realize....i suck my friends are dying of cancers and im losing family left and right the only thing i have left after my mom dies are her friends and my sister and niece.....which my nice has my beautiful eyes which i just want to cry cause it make me feel like im special...only a few people these days do that most just toy with my emotions and try to see how long i will hold on...dont forget to comment |
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| birthday |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|05:00 pm] |
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so far all i got for early birthday presents was a book which i never mind about a good book and a jump suit from mom |
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| alone and the wind and water |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|09:43 pm] |
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Alone
Even when others are near i fell alone.When you hold me i feel as if you dont love me.That you lead me on in hopes i wont be wise to it.In everyones eyesfaded almost invisible even from life itself. You only want my touch when its your choice.But turn away from mine like im a illness you can catch.Do you see me as a lover or just a toy.Once you love me now you hate me an for a reason i no not of.From this I realize I am Alone
Wind and Water
i am the wind that causes ripples in the quiet pound.Always playing in the cherry blossoms trees int he spring.even thought i can be gentle i can be harsh and crule if angered.
But you are my reason of me to exist.Just like the the wind needing the water and the water needing the wind.To my eyes you are the water you complete my soul.As long as you complete me my water i shall complete you.Our souls intertwine for all enerty. |
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| Aunt Marine |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|11:42 pm] |
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today my sister is going to the hospital to get ready to have my first baby niece. I'm kinda nervous and excited at the same time cause since its her first baby anything can happen.the doctors are going to induce labor monday night at 5 30 pm and they hope to have the baby some time tues. If mom is right which god rest her soul she is my sister will have the baby probably as soon as they induce it. im kinda getting used to the idea that i will be called aunt jammie soon which makes me proud. |
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| tears shead |
[Sep. 27th, 2005|12:23 am] |
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I find it hard to not cry anymore...but the thing is i cant help not crying around others...i guess its a feeling weakness to me...i try to be the strong silent type...now my moms cancers has gotten worse they say they cant take her off the chemo treatments and now its every time im alone i cry so much i run out of tears.i hope my mom lives long enough to see her first grand child grow up some and leave her with good memories of how great she is ...im crying as i type this.. dose not crying in front of people make me strong... no but i do it for the ones that need that strong looking figure...its the only way...i feel like im like my mother |
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| forlorn_rapture Lifeless |
[Oct. 5th, 2004|08:01 pm] |
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From the seven seas came the deepest blue
And nuances of bright pink as the flowers grew
And the cadmium red in the fields of carnation
Took her another step closer to salvation
They stained her tears and seeped into her vein
Till all the blood from her face was drained
Soon from our sun the yellow will be gone
All this is for her so she can carry on
The quiet silver of the woods in winter
Weaves itself through the fabric in her
The skies would sacrifice their ultramarine
So the glimmer in her eyes could be seen
A burst of orange splayed out after sundown
Lights up the hidden path that she never found
The purple that awakens, at the end of the day
Will come to chase away her asphalt grey
As the leaves are stripped of their emerald hue
Long before the fleeting seasons are due
Autumn will lose all of its warmest shades
Before that last sparkle in her quickly fades
The change takes place before her very eyes
Grayscale chrysalises to butterflies
The world now binds itself to black and white
Just to bring the colors in her back to life |
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| more from shinagami |
[Oct. 5th, 2004|07:29 pm] |
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hate is the heart crusher
without the heart the body dies
without the body the mind is destroied
without the mind the soul fades
and without your soul you have no life
so hate is the life stealer
How much do i love you, you will probably never know...
I wanted to tell the whole world, but freindship's all I'd show...
You took the time to talk me even when you have no time...
In this I found my love for you and set out to make you mine...
From that day I swore to protect you with my very life...
Through any wheather, any fight, or through any strife...
I dont know if I can ever tell the world about my love for you...
So...until I see you again, I simply say "I Love You"....... |
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| shinagami15 wrote this and i loved it and mines on the comments |
[Oct. 5th, 2004|04:44 pm] |
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what i see just cannot be
shadows move where light should be
i was warned of this dreadful night
now i shiver and shake in fright
i sweat in fear and i know it wont be long
for i can hear their silent song
if i could fight God knows i would
even thought it would do no good
the blood they spill and the pain they cause
only shows their disregard for laws
i can hear them nowas they howl through the night
i'll never forget the sound of a scraping butcher knife
these little devels come in the eve
always chanting it's our punishment receive
the screams have all stoped, survivor count one
i look around at my home undone
tears fill my eyes my vision blurs
the pain inside makes me feel as if my soul burns
i spot one now and i turn to flee
but its to late, they've surrounded me
as they move in they grin and stare
while me terrified screams fill the air
they stab at my body again and again
but by now i'm to numb to feel the pain
you can't save me now for it is to late
to die here i accept as my fate
the solution to why,nobody knows
why i had to die in the Pit of Shadows
thank you for letting me put it on here and the write is on yahoo but post comments here on my journal |
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| good night or morning |
[Oct. 5th, 2004|01:56 am] |
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hey i was just writing in this before going to bed just know i love all my fans and i will see you in the morning and have fun |
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| omfg where my gun |
[Oct. 3rd, 2004|09:04 am] |
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okay its too damn early to be woke up by a fucking little kid with a "i get what i want or else"attutde.....god damn it i can to inches of hitting but my sis/roomates son stopped me which was lucky for her cause i was going to give her a ass spanking.it started over her eating fucking stuff ment for lunch and dinner for breakfast when i told her thanks for the chips she started to ball i was like omg where is the damn gun when you need it....this damn girl just pees the bed and cries its getting my last nerve....i think i will go beat her ass foro making me use such foul words....thats if i can get william to go....no need to let him relive when i had to bust his ass....*pounces her lion and looks for his gun* |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|07:47 am] |
well today im in a off mood.....some reason my right shoulder is killing me but what the hell why sleep when i can be on the net with friends.....oh damn only one is on maybe two at the most....my mom is doing better and im in the mood to down load mor inu yasha music videos....i already have about 90 i'll probably add another topic for the day once the demons of hell get back from school....god i wish something would smack the girl one really hard time to make them behave i think the only kid that is good is my roomies/sis son william....i love that chibi he very good unlike the two girls here.....and damn i wrote more today then i do when im rping *does a dance*
ja ne til next time
Marine |
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| look look |
[Aug. 16th, 2003|05:50 pm] |
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hi everyone its me soon i hope to have my own gallery :D i'll have my own and share one with my best friend and then......ELFWOOD HERE I COME *plays its raining men for limes character* |
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| Marines entry |
[Jun. 24th, 2003|07:33 pm] |
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Marine: this is a warning to all dragons of earth I'm a dragon of the heaven and if you recive this you are cursed with your enemiess 3x3 bad luck and remeber I'm not human im not animal im something that lives inside you so choose your your path and forgive yourself |
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